Sore

Everythang. And I have no idea why. Especially my throat )= I hope.. I won't turn out like Kathrun (= < Well I'm not sure what to blog yet, so maybe later.

Well, toodles.


PS. Happy Birthday, John Miranda!!

EDIT.

1. We're drifting, obviously. And sometimes I feel like I should do something about it, but then I sometimes feel like.. Eh.
2. I still miss you. But you..
3. Lately you've been questioning, if I still see you the same way. And, yes, I do. Please just believe me when I say I do.

I kind of want to go back in time. When.. things were easier, better and kind of happier.

ANYWAYS, yesterday..:
)=

RUN captures ugly moments.

Thanks Runface<3

AND TODAY, ortho. I might put pictures later, that I took with my brotha. Later though. And I saw Christian, again! Yay, haha he works like.. by my brotha's barber shop place. Mkays, well I'm getting tired. Byessssssss

Uglies



PS2. Ashleeeeey! Let's catch up hehehe

And today

Was quite a good day [: <
I created this for Hanagie! 3 days of work, man.



Thank you Run, but I hate the rest of the pictures of me on your blog. I look dumb [:<
But yeah, good day. Well I'm tired, boyfran time.

Go for the GOLD

WOOH, I am in kind of a venting mood today. Like good/bad?
I think I'll.. Paraphrase and list.

1. I say things. I know I do. I don't mean things I sometimes say but it seems like I mean it but.. it's sometimes obvious by which things I mean and what I don't. And believe me when I say that. I know what I say. I know what it means, you don't. See it in my shoes sometimes, that's all I can ask for.
2. I know I miss you. I sometimes don't do anything about it. And like.. I know we weren't like fun buddies in middle school and we were just those people who talk about everything with each other but like although we weren't all fun and stuff, doesn't mean like.. I don't know how to explain it. But it doesn't seem like you care the way I do. And I need you more that it seems and I know you're here for me sometimes, but I want that like all the time. I just.. miss it ?
3. We're friends. I want you yo think of me as a friend and only as a friend. And I do not want BS in my life anymore and I swear if you do the same sh-- you have before ooooh, you just f*cked up my friend. But.. I gotta keep my distance.
4. You say you're the one who will sit and listen to me when I have a problem. You say are but you don't show it. It really doesn't seem like you care. And then I try to learn more about your life but I get shut out. I can't really explain it.
5. I can't keep up.

Lately I have been
Drawing, writing notes, playing with my hair, wanting more, over thinking, second thinking, bi- polar, confused, not sure what I want, trying, bringing my grades up slowly, catching up with people, having some fun, letting go, venting, blogging, listening to music, in the car, hungry, moody, mean, annoyed, tired, argumentative, feeling different, trying to be a better person, using Dolce&Gabbana light blue, feeling the need to shopshopshop, relaxed, uneasy, alright.

I love
To draw, my friends, my boyfriend, choir, 8th period, music, receiving notes, Hana's room, collages, long hair.

I don't like
Being judged, seagulls at school, arguing, having short hair, jerks, litter bugs, fakes, annoying stuff.


LENT:
1. Cussing (I am so serious -__-)
2. Chocolate, 7th love of my life.

I need to add more. But I think t hat's it for now. It's common but those are the things that are like.. so bold in my life.

I hung out with bestie John Galang today. Pretty nice. I hope tomorrow is Mohammad day. I'm trying to.. catch up. Okay well I might update laters. Bye



SELFREALIZATION
woahhitsmitch: its not ♥
woahhitsmitch: its you
woahhitsmitch: you dont trust yourself
woahhitsmitch: at all
woahhitsmitch: thats why you dont talk to ♥s
woahhitsmitch: and you use ♥ as an excuse
woahhitsmitch: so you can hide it
woahhitsmitch: have you ever noticed that ?
woahhitsmitch: you have no hope in yourself


I really think he knows me too well. And, harsh, but he's right.
He is THE psychologist of my life.

Currently

I am happy (=<>long already! My gosh. And the color of my hair needs a new friend. )=

I also want more clothes )= I don't have much variety, waah.

Okay well byes

HOROSCOPE:
Leo: As Venus enters Aries on the 4th, you'll be in the mood to sport edgier trends in your school's hallways. The downside? Expect others to imitate your new look.
Love: Petty arguments force you and your boyfriend to delve into topics you've been avoiding. But don't worry: Everything will turn out for the best.

How ironic. I sure hope so!

Why

am I so bipolar about this ish ? I really do not get why I keep going back from one mood with ♥ then the next it's like, BULL. Gosh, like I love being in a good mood with ♥ but I can't keep going back from one mood with it then to the total opposite mood o.o I don't wanna lose this though.

are you one of those people I can not like.. get out of my life? No matter where I go or how far you are, you do not escape my life. Ypu keep coming back and it's not a bad thing, but I just want to know like WHY you? And like, why is it that once I think you're out pf my life.. you surprisingly come back?

do you have to be so far oncd I need you most? I regret not going to you when you were here, but now, you're more far than I imagined. I know I have the opprutunity to embrace your presence.. But I don't know why when you are here, I can't do that. Like, I want you here, to be my guidance.. but I don't know. I miss you, too much. You were the only one who would understand. And help, and care.

do you care so much of what he's not doing and start caring about what's good for you? I only want you to be happy, you know? All the ish he did to you, goodness, you really do deserve better. And you put a lot of sense into my mind.

is it that I can't call you a ♥ anymore, I know you're here for me and stuff, but like.. I try all the time to be closer and try to get the chance to chill and stuff.. But in my eyes, I see excuses, not reasons. At least something legit? You are close to me and stuff, but can I really give you that title?


Anyways, I miss people. I miss person especially. Man. I think I have isolated myself in a bad kind of way. But that was my decision, not anyone else's.. Ugh, why do I do that? I think I try to make people happy but like not make myself happy. Or.. well I am happy, but I can't stay like that for awhile. Waaaaaaaaaaaaah! )=< Sadwadbad. Okay This blog took me hours to post. Well, I am gonna go. Byes♥




EDIT:
I went minigolfing for the first time today. It was fun. I had a yellow ball, and took it home <3
Plus guppy's! Guppy House, yum!! And boba. Fun day. Siblings - Kuya + Monds. Mkay byes

PS. I love my sister most.