Tempted

Time is going by fast today.

Spillin;
01. Final decision?
02. Guilt x 97,498?
03. What do I want?
04. Not as perfect
05. Memories killin me
06. Cost of consequences
07. Can't get enough
08. Too tempting
09. Figuring myself out
10. You a playa playa?
11. Spill everything tonight
12. Can't tell X everything
13. 'I Wanna Be..' how ironic.
14. I'm killing myself here
15. Can't, won't, wouldn't, couldn't.
16. Greatest Story Ever Told- Oliver James
17. Not right, not fair.
18. Tryna decide, Tryna decide
19. Why am I so negative
20. Walked right into my life.
21. Claimed a spot already.
22. A cute, imaginary friend in the shadows.
23. Knock You Down
24. B E B
25. She Was Mine

Horoscope:
You want to be spontaneous, yet playful activities may seem immature or even out of place today because your mind is set on more important things. Part of your current intelligence is your wisdom to set practical goals that are fully attainable. Your ambitions may not be as grandiose as you like, but there's still much for you to do, so save the partying for another day and get to work.

Symphony

@ Home, waiting for people to arrive, kinda. But that's not for another two hours, hehe. (=
As of right now, I can hear 'My Boo' playing for outside, somewhere. And I have no idea where it's coming from, but all I know is it's from outside and I can hear it (=
I don't have much to update on because
1. I haven't done anything in the past few hours.
2. My life is way too boring
and 3. I need new excitement

Lately, the only things I've been doing is tryna find something to look forward to, figure myself out, tryna decide what the right thing to do is, get my mind straight and just plain out thinking. And I don't like to think too much because it gets my moods all twisted and there is not much of a good outcome. Situations lately have just been unable to solve and hard to make a final decision that won't get me regretting. I don't like to really spill all my feelings out on blogger, or publicly because it makes me seem like a drama queen and I have all the shii in the world, but.. No. But yeah, anyways. I've gone to some people bout this whole thing but I really no I have to make the decision myself and advice will only help me a little. But mmm, I just have no clue what to do because I can't just.. Not. SO YEAH, need some help from God. And yeah, just need to figure myself out on my own. (=

Thinking of;
01. Monds monds monds, he's here.
02. Fawzi and his coolness
03. What's best for me.
04. Why I can't make a decision already
05. Slow Motion
06. The way he expresses himself
07. The signs that are in front of me
08. Which lollipop is better
09. What means more?
10. Can't explain myself.
11. Had too much, can't put it away anymore.
12. Perfect match
13. Everything I want.
14. Different
15. Something Special.
16. Song lyrics.

Horoscope:
You might feel as if you've lost your momentum at work or, perhaps, your status within your community has suffered. Now, however, you are ready to make a stand, for things have slipped backwards far enough. But don't get sidetracked with what others think about you. Instead, concentrate on your goals and simply try to meet your own expectations.

Flawless

Home on a Friday night, unable to go out and be free. )=
The plan was 'sposed to be:
1.Mall to watch Up with the girls! (didn't happen anyway?)
2. Spring show, supporting John and Jerel and Brittany! And NHS, basically (=

But yeah, couldn't go out, waaaah )= Well it's fine.
Being home isn't that bad, riiiiight? (= Hehehe
Oh and I getta watch the Lakers win this shiiiiiiii!
2nd quarter, 46.5 seconds, Lakers winning : 50 - 39, baby!!

My day was just fine, nothing really happened 'cept:
1ST, late because I'm an idiot and thought there was a sub? (= So I went to go get breakfast instead..?
2ND, Took the 7-questioned test! Ehp, I think I failed.. But I still got a C- in geometry, wha the!
3RD, Chen made an 'ANTI- PITRIZZ' journal cuz I won't show him mine )= Waaaaaah! Jerk -_____-
RENASSANCE, was pretty alright! Got a 'ROWDY' and '!' Freshman color cardboard sign! (= Gabbay can shake it, SHOOOT! Hahaha, and yeah (= We were loud for the NOBLE shout out, wooohooo, yet.. we didn't win )=
5TH, was momma's boba being sold, made $44? Hahaha, a dollar for like 3 diffent cup sizes, ahahah, wth. But yeah, got fulla that FAST!
LUNCH, I felt M.I.A.
6TH, was talking to Kathrun bout everythang, and if there was no sin and walking around nakey and 3 boobs? and 3 arms and one big toe, cute stuff!
7TH, I worte on the board for Mrs. Rodriguez, that was fun! Hahaha, yeah.

BUT the whole day I felt so self- conscious since my zipper on my shorts were broken, and yeah.. )= Whatever, you couldn't see nada anyways, high- wasted shorts? And then yeah, after school I went to the mall with sista to pick up her paycheck, shoot, her store got some nice clothes.. now! Heheh, then ate a BigMac <3 And nuggets! And then we went to picture place to pick up her prom pictures, how cute! Then library where I had a hard time putting the books in the little drop- off thang <3 Haaha, I suck? And then yeah, got home, changed to sweats and a shirt, it was cold! And then yeah, visit? And then yeah, here writing this.. (= So yeah! That's my day today (= There woulda been more, but I'm not out, so yeah (= K!

Thoughts in the mind of the confused? Hah!
01. I can look into your eyes
02. I'll tell you my whole lfe
03. If only I wasn't so sympathetic..
04. If only I knew what the right thing to do
05. If only I would stop frontin
06. If only I wasn't so afraid to..
07. Ridin that bike up the hill
08. '6:45, latest!'
09. The meanings of these songs
10. God is sending me a sign
11. Tough situation?
12. I wanna chill with my girls
13. Potluck tomorrow, I'm excited.
14. If I lived a thousand years
15. Stare you doooooOoOooown
16. The Way You Make Me Feel
17. Heart stopper.
18. In denial
19. All your little thangs
20. ANTI- P book!? Waaah babe
21. Trying to find a flaw
22. I need a Trinka Day
23. Thoughts in a bottle
24. 'Coco puffs are different, but Divas a rare.'
25. I need my time
26. This is soo not helping
27. Dark Brown I's
28. Can't keep you waiting
29. I need to take a long walk (=
30. Cute hair, dude
31. X-ray vision ay? Siiick!
32. BABYBUUUMP
33. This is the most thoughts I've ever had.


Damn HOROSCOPE is right, always..
Your life is complicated by your ability to see the truth, especially when this awareness makes it impossible to keep up superficial appearances. You aren't very interested now in what others think of your perspective; it's not a negotiable commodity. Still, there's no need to be self-righteous. It will be easier to get along with your friends if you, at least, allow for the possibility that well-meaning people can have very different views of the same situation.

Because

I didn't blog yesterday, I'll blog here, @ 6:23am.
Well, yesterday I finally practiced :O! (= Shooot!
Shows hout out of shape I am, daaaaaang! Hehehe! (=
So as of this moment, I am like a sore potato )= !
Then hung out with Trinka, walked walked walked!
Saved her life + saved my own when we walked up this hill -__-
And then yeah, went home to receive a confession-ish? (=
AND THEN, I just knocked out <3


Numbered thoughts;
01. Like serio, what am I gonna do?
02. I don't know what I want..
03. Soft spoooooot
04. Admit it, just admit it.
05. Bestfriends know me to well.. -__-
06. The more you take, the more you can't push away
07. Fuck, I can't do it.
08. One way or the other..
09. FML FML FML FML FML!
10. God, please.

EDITED @ 9:18!
So, I was rushed this morning to go to school so I deed not get to publish summa this, so yeah. Today was a good day, overall (= Horoscopes are always right.. -__- So yeah! Jazz concert went well!! Lavvvv it, boba, yum <3 Hana's house was good, Hana and Anne ended up going to sleep so me and Trinks walked 'round friendship and attempted to walk to Aloah, but.. Not successful (= And yeah! I'm sooooore from practice yesterday! Wooooh! Practice officially starts MONDAY and, summer games, oh sweet <3!

Numbered Thoughts;
01. Decision= Not made..
02. Advice from the closest.
03. Putting the puzzle together in 5th
04. All these signs?
05. God, help me, please please please.
06. These songs, hahhhhhhhhh!
07. Leave it all behind
08. What about my happiness..?
09. Soft spot, fsho.
10. Understand.
11. No need for waiting
12. Why the heck can't I just stop
13. I suck. Period.

Baby actually dedicated a song to me?!!? :O teehee


Horoscope?
The Moon's return to your sign can be emotionally intense as your moods swing wildly like a pendulum out of control. Nevertheless, you are able to make progress throughout the day by observing your feelings without necessarily expressing them. It's not always easy to just allow the wisdom of your body to react naturally, without an audience. Keep your inner world to yourself until things settle down in a day or two.

Decide

So lately, there has been a lot a lot a lot on my mind. And there are situations I don't know how to handle and problems I don't know how to solve and decisions that are too hard to make. So, yeah )= But yeah!

Today was a good day. Chen got a haircut, yumsyay. Mm, I filmed? Chilled with HUHNUH and took a nice walk. And got some opinions from a neutral person <3 Found things out that surprised me, realied many, many things, and uh yeah (= Sucessful day, I guess (=


Thoughts keep rollin;
01. Shouldn't be effecting me.
02. Neutral advice
03. I need help, big time.
04. The more taken in, the more you can't push away.
05. What's best for me?
06. Over- analyzing..?
07. BIGBIG shocker
08. Lullabyes
09. Good morning's
10. And the bad side is..
11. Just tell me the truth
12. For the sake of my own happieness
13. Build a bridge and get over it
14. It's not being selfish
15. Putting it in their shoes.
16. Perfect match
17. Better With You
18. It's gon be Magic & Lakers!
19. Nothing's changed
20. Too much on my brain
21. My head needs some rest..


Horoscope, woooooah;
You are quite content to keep your feelings to yourself today and a little solitude will do you good. But don't pass up an opportunity to let your imagination wander with someone who seems to be as much of a dreamer as you are now. Forget about having an agenda; if you don't try to force the conversation anywhere in particular, it just might leave you with a smile on your face for the rest of the day.