Why

am I so bipolar about this ish ? I really do not get why I keep going back from one mood with ♥ then the next it's like, BULL. Gosh, like I love being in a good mood with ♥ but I can't keep going back from one mood with it then to the total opposite mood o.o I don't wanna lose this though.

are you one of those people I can not like.. get out of my life? No matter where I go or how far you are, you do not escape my life. Ypu keep coming back and it's not a bad thing, but I just want to know like WHY you? And like, why is it that once I think you're out pf my life.. you surprisingly come back?

do you have to be so far oncd I need you most? I regret not going to you when you were here, but now, you're more far than I imagined. I know I have the opprutunity to embrace your presence.. But I don't know why when you are here, I can't do that. Like, I want you here, to be my guidance.. but I don't know. I miss you, too much. You were the only one who would understand. And help, and care.

do you care so much of what he's not doing and start caring about what's good for you? I only want you to be happy, you know? All the ish he did to you, goodness, you really do deserve better. And you put a lot of sense into my mind.

is it that I can't call you a ♥ anymore, I know you're here for me and stuff, but like.. I try all the time to be closer and try to get the chance to chill and stuff.. But in my eyes, I see excuses, not reasons. At least something legit? You are close to me and stuff, but can I really give you that title?


Anyways, I miss people. I miss person especially. Man. I think I have isolated myself in a bad kind of way. But that was my decision, not anyone else's.. Ugh, why do I do that? I think I try to make people happy but like not make myself happy. Or.. well I am happy, but I can't stay like that for awhile. Waaaaaaaaaaaaah! )=< Sadwadbad. Okay This blog took me hours to post. Well, I am gonna go. Byes♥




EDIT:
I went minigolfing for the first time today. It was fun. I had a yellow ball, and took it home <3
Plus guppy's! Guppy House, yum!! And boba. Fun day. Siblings - Kuya + Monds. Mkay byes

PS. I love my sister most.